Ok. As I promised(and I know I promised a lot but no keeping them) I am here. I got threw the week in the school. Now what I felt?
When you start to gossip you may notice or not the urge to tell people things.
For me when something happens with me and I try to cope with it I need to tell people. Need means I feel bad if I don't do it. This week I felt numerous times that I needed to do something. So I let it out and from the back of my mind I watched how it felt.
So struggling with feelings check ☑️, the clarity of my thoughts disappearing check ☑️.
Next week will be the one, where I will really try to not to gossip about others, and keep it down about me.
Next week I will be teaching in a school. 2 weeks of practice week for me. And I really don't know how many classes I will be teaching English. My major is Hungarian language and literature combined with English language and literature. And yes the job that I kinda wanted but never really is to be a teacher.
I am terrified of screwing at any job. Really. And I know that I just need to be prepared for each class and I will totally do as much as I can. Last time when my teacher of English pedagogy told us that the new teachers may prepare hours for their classes I kinda laughed 😀. Why would they? And now seeing that the practice is coming I feel like I will totally prepare as much as I can. I will read a lot about the topic I need to cover with them and maybe even rehears a bit what can happen.
One of my 'colleagues' - Hungarian major mates told me that I don't need to stress that much about it, since I will probably never see any of the people form that place ever again. Am I worried now? I still am, but yesterday night it gave me some better feelings. Yes, I might have issues but i am just a beginner. Everyone makes mistakes. So this will be just a great opportunity to see what my real problems are and how I can improve them.
I hope you liked this entry.
Have a nice whatever 😊 😘
