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So again a topics that pulls me close and wants to be said. This is when you are the one who does not appreciate people. I don't know why but for years there has been a person in my life that needed to be there. It wasn't a choice of his neither mine. What I noticed a few days back that I hurt him. It was a big pain what I caused him. You know in cases when there has to be someone in your life and you do take them for granted you stop giving them back the love they give to you.
Maybe you feel that they are way too simple for you but without them you might not be who you are.

I just noticed this, that I hurt a person like that. He gave me a signal. He tried. I was the one shutting it down. And when you loose that signal, that chance it is bad. I know a lot of people would not give a shit about this. Like the other person in my place- my brother.
He is in the surface ignorant of this problem. But me.... In times when I can't sleep I always think about the people that I hurt or hurted. I feel bad for it.

Noone can change their past. We came down with knowing our path - or at least this is what I believe in. We knew what will happen and we took the 'job' . And yes it can be hard, you need to be cruel sometimes. And you might forget about stuff. I know I shouldn't feel this way but I do. I know I should tell him how I feel, that I am sorry - this will ever happen? I don't know. One song comes into my mind that can make you feel better in this kind of a situation.

Natural by Imagine dragons
Hope it helps you too

Have a nice whatever 😊