Self daubt

I believe everyone went there before. Thinking that you are alone or just rare people can understand you. I am always like that. Ok just mostly. But still. When I am prepared for something I am still struggling inside How it will go? and Will I be good enough?
It is part of me. My mother. My dear mum/mummy she is always with me. And my dearest friend Sara. I've got 2 new friends who I trust dearly. And now days my roommate is pretty good too. Oh and the newest friend that I actually knew from before but now we are together a lot.
So these are the people who try to help me with this issue. And laugh with me. These give me strength. Because there is at least one man who tries to give me hell. Maybe that can make someone go on and be better. But I am not doing it for him. He will never know if I am good or not. He just wants to hurt me so he can be seen as someone better than me. There are people like this. They try and they sometimes succeed. But only if you let them. If you give them power over your thoughts.
Life is hard and guess what? You will eventually die. So why don't you stop carrying about what negative people say to you. Of course there is a difference between helpful criticism and pushing someone down. So decide whether or not is worth listening to what they say. And if it is not worth it than form one ear to the other and out goes what they said.
A positive thought : God made us who we are, so if he made you you need to be worth something. And if He believes in you you should do it too.
These thoughts coming from a person who does not go to church but believes in someone greater than Us. - ok let's save this I believe stuff for an another entry. I don't want to change any of you.
I just want to thank you for reading. Have a nice whatever 😊 Timi